April 20, 2017, revealed painful, horrific truths amidst that life-shattering night pierced by red and blue lights. Awakening in a never-ending nightmare, Clemmie-Li staggers and struggles through the fight for survival and sanity. She pleads "not to be this angry," while feeling hopeless, desperately alone, and scared. Will anyone help? This true rendition, condensed from memories etched in the author's mind and words she penned in journals, vulnerably exposes Li's life during the last five years and how she more than survived. For anyone facing traumatic life events, learn how she forgave, healed, and moved forward into living long-forgotten dreams.